I'm Over it Now

Thanks to all of you who took the time to not only read my blog, but also offer up encouraging words to me. I really debated on whether I should post my last entry after I wrote it because I knew even at the time that I was being more emotionally-driven than clear-headed-driven (amazing, a three-hyphen word!). I decided, though, that writing down and saving feelings is rarely a bad thing -- even if they are the sort of feelings that are self-centered and melancholy.

What is interesting for me, is being in a good mood and going back and reading something that was written when I was in a depressed mood. I am not typically the sort of person who feels down too often. Generally, I am happy -- and that happiness is 100% genuine. I am a blessed person and I know that I get much more than I deserve from life. Sometimes my feelings get the best of me.

Feelings are funny things. In today's world, we always hear about how valuable our feelings are and how someone's feelings should always be validated, and never criticized. That is a load of stinky poo-dung.

I find that most of the time, feelings only serve to distort reality and promote a self-centric view of the world. I generally do not like to be around people who are always talking about their feelings because all they talk about is themselves and blame everyone else (or just life in general) for picking on poor little them.

You know these people -- they are the ones at your workplace who shuffle in each day with a pathetic Bassett Hound look on their faces. When you ask them, "How's it going?" they just sigh their heavy sighs and say something that corners you into asking them more questions out of guilt because you don't want to be known as the heartless guy who doesn't validate the feelings of the guy in the next cubicle/classroom/office/urinal over. These people are draining.

Now having said that, please know that I do not mind the occasional rough day or the occasional venting of feelings, which is what I believe that I did. By writing my feelings out, I got a chance (as did a handful of other people in my life) to see how obnoxiously selfish my feelings were, and I was able to get them out of my system within a few days.

It felt good to vent my feelings, but I'm over them now.